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ScarsStanding in the shower
Skin turning redder

I stay still and soak it in
This water won't erase my sins

Scars stand out bright white
Burns and cuts all in sight

The real scars cannot be seen
They reside inside of me

I wonder if all I will be
is a creature scarred eternally?

Touch the SkyThe beauty of a lonely tree
Strikes a chord inside of me
I sit on a rock and ponder
If the solitude made it stronger

Did being all alone
Turn its will to stone
Make it desperately
Want to live to see another tree?

If these thoughts are correct
Perhaps I should go back a step
Find the same will inside
Refuse to give up or die

Someday I'll find my purpose
Stop feeling so worthless
I walk to the tall old tree
Holding an acorn close to me

I plant it in the earth nearby
Someday it will reach the sky
I try to reward my new friend
For the seed it planted within

AnxietyIcy fingers in my aching gut
Throat swelling completely shut

I lay shake and leak out tears
Unable to escape my fears

I don't even know what they are
The things that have driven me this far

I hold my hand to the burning incense
My only solace in pain intense

The cracking flesh relieves my mind
Helps my anxiety to unwind

backwardsGrowing old before my time
Life lived without reason or rhyme

I look back at the years
Wonder why I'm here

Waiting for death's embrace
Sad smile upon my face

No more tears or laughter
What are all these years for?

I'm so full of regret
For things I can't forget

If I could do it all again
I wouldn't know where to begin

I muddle though this life
Wondering at the pain and strife

I have made a mess of this
Now I stand upon this precipice

Is there anywhere to go but down?
I don't want to stand my ground

This torment is endless
Cold and broken, friendless

I cast a broken silhouette
An old man stained with regret

Still waiting

Dream GirlLight filters through the leaves
As we lay looking at the trees

Sunlight dapples your face
Shadows like an airy lace

I study the angles that you present
You lie still and silently assent

I trace the line of your cheek
You roll toward me and start to speak

We talk and laugh and enjoy the day
Hold each other close in every way

I wake up from this dream
Lay here wishing I could scream

I still search for you in my sleep
Wishing you were a reality I could keep

UntitledSomewhere in the forest
A wolf cries to the moon
So I begin to ponder
Alone here in my room
As to what the wolf is after
When it calls out to the moon
I think I thought of something
But I fell asleep too soon.

to all my friendsTo all my friends that aren't quite right
you're special just like you are
don't you change for all the world
I think that you're all just fine

maybe the world needs to recognize
that we're not all the same all of the the time
whatever you do know that I'll support you
I'll be a fan of your life

to everyone that's reading along
I just want to say that you all belong
somewhere in this world so large

if someone comes along and bothers you
just tell them that at least you're true
and you know what it is that you want

all my friends should be themselves
don't give it to other's wants
so just go on and be who you are
you know tha

walkingwalking alone there is no other
noone to protect you from the dark
the whole world is cold to your sight
come with me now and find the light

there are things here
that you never expected
happiness that seems so right

I will be here for you forever
trying to make you feel allright
everything now has come together
all of our hopes will come to light

there are things here
that you never expected
happiness that seems so right

stay here with me in this endeavor
come with me we'll stay awake all night
living here in this endless wonder
being with you is so very right

there are things here
that you never expected
happiness that s

In the ParkIn the park beneath the trees
Couples chatting playfully

I see them in the distance
As I sit upon this park bench

I came here to sit in peace
To read a book and seek release

Their happiness is a torment
A reminder of what is absent

I get up and walk away
I'll return again another day

Lonely ChristmasChristmas is here again
too much empty time to spend
the space beside me cold
noone there to hold

I try to believe
that my life will lead
me to the one I belong with
so hear my Christmas wish

I wish for this to be
the last Christmas so lonely

Falling for YouLooking for a pair of arms to fall in to
To wrap around me, to hold me in

Laying next to you on the couch
I feel your heartbeat, in time with my own

All the time I am with you
I feel more alive
I try to see the world
Through your pretty eyes

I know that you're with me
Whenever we're apart
I feel you nestled
Deep down in my heart

All the tears and mistakes were worthwhile
For in the end I found you, my dearest one

You are the reason for everything I do
Breathing in your perfume, I love you

RecedingWe talked again the other day
I barely kept my tears at bay

I thought these feelings were gone
The memories fading, I was wrong

You still have your place in my heart
Thorns sunk deep you will not depart

Would it be so wrong to say
I just want emotions to go away

I strive to be more withdrawn
To close my heart and carry on

But I've begun to fall apart
I can't conceal my bleeding heart

I was too young to know what I'd begun
That it could cause my life to come undone

Now all I do is sit at home
And wish for things I've never known

I Am...I am an observer,
I watch as you fall
and I won't make a move
to answer your call.
I am dishonest,
it has been since my smallest years
that I let my truth into others ears.

I am a composer,
of a great many lies
yet carry luck like a clover
I never break my disguise.

Through those heat filled faces surrounding me
I can just barely see
and sometimes I find nowhere to run
they take over me.
I am rarely awake with sun,
so that when everything slips undone,
I will not be exposed
I will always stay composed.

I keep my secrets like stars keep distance
burning bright beneath my skin
defining my existence
out of reach and filled

friendsslowly losing all my friends
they fade away in the end
all my dreams of the future
never really mattered
my life slowly fades to grey
no reason left for me to stay
all of the friendships I nurtured
slowly turn to torture
I watch them all walk away
try to keep them for another day
I don't seem to matter
there's always something bigger
a shinier horizon
I'm nothing to be interested in
life takes them all away
leaves me here alone to say
that I never really mattered
I wish that it would hurt
so I could hate them all but
I know I don't matter
I hope what they find makes them happier
no more tears or sadness
I want them to

The chill of an early fallThe chill of an early fall
a light breeze through the trees
this is the world I hold inside
the one that nobody sees

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sunshinewalking in the sunshine
running through the trees
the smells of fall surround me
and bring me to my knees

there is a whole world out there
in which not all believe
there is happiness and sunshine
and flowers and bees

someday I hope you'll join me
and enjoy the breeze
the outdoors are awesome
even if they do make me sneeze

wallking awayI can't stand the hurt inside of me
looking at you only to see
that I never mattered

I walk away from you now
going so far away
no more of you do I want to see

I've gone so far now I cannot see
what it was that you ever saw in me
no more illusions no more desire

I will never give up this world of mine
no matter how cold and broken
I can always hope for something more

someday I will find someone else out here
trudging away from the one they held dear
we will meet and talk and rest a while

maybe we will stop and tread no more
finding in each other happiness pure
or we will part ways looking for our cure

randomslowly I walk down this aisle
eyes glare from the shadows
minds made up before I speak

why does the world seem so lonely
where has all the sunlight gone
why must I stand here so empty

sometimes I fear falling down
embracing their way of life
mortally wounding my sense of right

why do they all seem so fake
where are the decent people
why can't I dodge my fate

slowly I look around me
everything dark falls away
maybe I can help the others

why not come together
where we all can forget to hate
why not make it better

surely we can fix this whole world
encounter our fears and disgrace
make ourselves worth saving

I want to find a

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Insomnia

by ~dominaeexitium, Jan 17, 2013, 5:40:19 PM
Literature / Poetry / General Poetry / Free Verse

Waking in the dead of night
Wondering about my life

All the things I've left undone
How did things go so wrong

I lay here drenched in sweat
Haunted by the old regrets

Trying to stay awake
Frightened by my dreamscape

Stay up until the dawn
Go to work with face drawn

I struggle on through the day
People curiously glance my way

I finally make my way home
Wait for the cycle to go on

Insomniaby ~dominaeexitium

Literature / Poetry / General Poetry / Free Verse

This is me.

~chilling-wind Jan 18, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

not conventional, but have you tried marijuana

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~dominaeexitium Jan 18, 2013

No, I haven't really, but from the times I've had a contact high, I know it makes me sad, and afterwards, even sadder.. Thanks for the suggestion though

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~candygirl101010 Jan 17, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

this sux u should look up some remadies for insaminia

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~dominaeexitium Jan 17, 2013

Thank you, I've tried most of them. It turns out I'd rather not be able to sleep, than to face the dreams that come when I do.

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~candygirl101010 Jan 17, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

ooh wanna shair ur scaryest dreems? i love nightmairs its like a horor movie that u cant turn off and i love it but... ive never been normal

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~dominaeexitium Jan 17, 2013

Oh it's not the nightmares that bother me, I don't have those often, and when I do it's like you say, just a horror movie that I'm starring in rather than watching.

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~candygirl101010 Jan 17, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

isnt anything u dont like dreeming of considered a nightmare?

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~dominaeexitium Jan 17, 2013

I usually do like the dreams, until I realize that that is all they are.. Most of my dreams deal with my past and the people from it. I suppose you could say that my past is my nightmare.

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~candygirl101010 Jan 18, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

thats awfull

i get what u meen though im so sry

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~dominaeexitium Jan 18, 2013

No worries, thank you for your concern

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